cross my Cross, cross my Life

The best celebration of my 6570 days of living!

2010-01-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

My best 18th birthday present,
was being able to spend it with some of my closest buddies and also my family.
You know how you always get super excited for your birthdays when you're young,
then as the years go by and one by one, disappointing birthdays pass as well,
you start not getting your hopes too high on having a really good birthday?
I guess, today was somewhat like that. I didn't really expect anyone other than my family to
care enough to surprise me with a cake and stuff like that.
And even worse, the day was off to a grumpy start, playing my FAVOURITE sport.
8.30am in Xinmin Secondary School - Friendly match with Xinmin B Boys.
Result? What I felt was quite a sloppy turnout and attitude from my teammates.
ARGH.
Don't you just hate the feeling of feeling so strongly about something that is repeatedly happening
(e.g. Your teammates showing loser attitudes on court over and over again like becoming quiet and kanchiong once we are losing by a few points)
and being restricted by your own conscience cause you know that if you constantly bring the issue up,
the situation would probably get worse?
(e.g. My teammates would lose even more moral, get irritated and shut-off completely, or even worse, grow to hate your guts?)
Yeah, I HATE THAT FEELING.
Being so restricted by no one else but myself, my self-pride, my image. Maybe I'm the one that's a loser, huh? Anyway, the thing I feel so strongly about would just eat into me till I become tired of saying anything at all, tired of encouraging, tired of maintaining my image, going into irritation myself.
After the friendly which we lost, I just didn't feel like talking to anyone, but lo and behold,
I was shocked by this!

The guys bought me an cake! It was UBER unexpected k!
Its really rare for friends to buy me a cake or even remember my birthday. Well I guess facebook helped in that department. :D Still, I was really surprised la! Thanks guys!

(That stupid coffeeshop elephant-hide auntie wanted a friggin' slice la. We were so nice to give it to her and after that when I ordered a drink and wanted to pay her 90 cents with four 5 cent coins, she refused to take it la! What the shit. She ended up taking the drink back cause I more stubborn than her HAH!)
Then, the crow decided to take a leak on my crumpler velcro T_T.

After that was quite boring - had to entertain a few relatives till about 6 plus then my family and I went out for dinner at Fish Manhattan(the grilled catch of the day is heavenly with that oh-so-tasty butter garlic sauce!). Mmmmmmm. After that, my parents bought me a bag, a jacket and they bought me a watch last year!
My sis and bro bought me a super nice shirt too! :D I'm the luckiest guy today.

Thanks guys, thanks god!

I don't wanna lose my soul.

2010-01-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

The start of a new Journey.

2010-01-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

I have absolutely no idea how bad or good this new year's gonna be,

but one thing I do know is that its gonna be interesting.

Kicking off the year with the awkward remnants of a feud between

once-close friends, having closer relationships with others,

the super-hectic life straight ahead and my super-slacker class buddy with me,

volleyball nationals in sight while still fighting for my position as spiker,

upcoming station master selections and the ever-awesome TJ orientation in two weeks' time,

*phew* the new batch of sportsxcellers coming in, sportsxcel induction camp,

and not to mention, piles and piles of undone homework!

YET, I'm still excited as a rat with golden cheese.

I wonder why... Why look forward to a lazy life in school with tonnes of work and tests?

Well, with good friends at your side, you just take it anyway, maybe with a rant or two.

The hols were great, but I'll bet school term will be better! Stand aside!

Happy Times. Really Happy Times.

2009-12-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Life's so good! Exams are over, an end to two things I've come to hate with all my being:

One, CHINESE.
Two, PROJECT WORK.

Need I say more? Actually. Yes, yes I do. Its the holidays, Student Leadership Camp 2009 for which I was the overall IC of is, thankfully, OVER, I don't really care about homework, I'm having so much fun spending time with my close friends and especially, God, and training has finally started again after about 6 months. So yeah, life totally rocks. :) Contentment is so satisfying. Is that statement redundant? o_o You know what I mean, I think.

Student Leadership Camp - seriously blood sweat and tears for me for the past one and a half months, organised by 12 students (SPORTSXCEL 09/10!!) for about a HUNDRED campers over at a bare beach out-in-the-wild campsite in Pulau Ubin - was a smashing success in the end. Hours and hours spent on planning and worrying and not-sleeping totally paid off BIG TIME man. Hardest time in my life, ever. Seriously. No joke.

Let's see, what else to blog about? Oh yeah, my mum's slowly recovering from depression, that strong woman. But sucks to see her always sick, now that her immune system's really down due to the depression. Keep going mum!

Oh crap, it's so late now. Have training tml. Shitttt. Out.

A rant-ish post.

2009-09-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

Rant rant rant.
So many people complicating my life. As usual.
The same group of people. As usual.
Just like ummm... what, 3 years ago?
Yeah, always have to be them.
God, help.
I don't know.
Am I making the right decision?
Pure crappy life.

Unified in Praise.

Absolute Beauty.

2009-08-26T01:43:00.001+08:00

let yourself feel. from Esteban Diácono on Vimeo.

This is super awesome. So relaxing...

June hols suck.

2009-06-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

I'm getting overworked.
Seriously.
AYG, naggy chinese teachers,
outstanding chinese hw, project work,
homework all rolled into one HUGE bundle of freaking stress.
Hate it. HATE IT.

With my all, my everything.

2009-05-11T01:28:00.003+08:00

Today's worship experience was A.W.E.S.O.M.E.!
The song "with everything" totally rocks! Check it out in the video! (:

"Let hope rise.
Let darkness tremble
in Your Holy Light.
Jesus our God,
great and mighty to be praised."

WITH EVERYTHING.

And, God totally gave me a breakthrough in my Life.
I'm free from depression. Hallelujah.

School's getting boring! :/

2009-04-28T01:08:00.003+08:00

Finally, JC life begins to seem more and more routine!
I found it quite exciting and fun in the first term,
but now, its quite sucky. Maybe cause of the
'A' Div season that's just started, or maybe it's cause of my
utter disappointment in not being able to play in the
competition, after getting repeated false hope from my
coach. Wooohooooooooooo.....

Crap luh. Alot of things to do!
Waste-of-time volleyball competition, one.
June Charity Event, TCC, two.
Project Work PI Final Draft(CURSE THE FELLER WHO CAME UP WITH PW), three.
Homework that's piling up, four.(this is as usual -.-)
CAN! 24Hr Marathon on 29th May, five.
Study for the upcoing multitude of tests, six.
DSA Brochure, seven!
and that's just what came to my mind in the last 30 seconds.
So you can imagine how "relaxed" my life is now. -.-
I HAVE A STRAND OF WHITE HAIR! Haha!

God, please help me in this tough times as a J1 Student!
Amen.

I'm baaaaaack.

2009-04-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

Woot woot woot!
Had some considerable fun today.
Actually, nah, it was quite a lot of fun la.
No, not training, there wasn't any today (THANK GOD!).
Me, kw, liangkai, jiehui and jamie went to school to
do up the noticeboard for our batch of SportsXcel people. (09/10 rocks!)
Doesn't sound fun righttt,
but, yeah it was... Just spent time crapping and
joking around with them, and bullying kw. Lol.

But, I was late like 1 and a half hours.
Went to buy materials for the board and made
a shocking discovery. One piece of plastic foam costs a whopping $1.60!
OUCH. Best still, cannot claim. Most likely.

Anyway, enough bout today.
've given up on volleyball!
Actually, just on being in the main 6.
I feel humiliated. I DSA into the school,
then get replaced by appeal students who're
my previous schoolmates. =.=
I miss Billy's setting! :(
I guess, anyone who I say that to while cursing my
rapid deprovement due to Janan's setting,
would think that I'm just blaming Janan
cause I don't want to face up to the fact that I'm just not
good. I guess there is that small sense of relief that
at least, I'm deproving due to a reason other than that.
But I still believe in what I've been cursing.
Cause I realise I can spike whenever Terence sets, but not when Janan sets.
(Those who are not vb players,
basically I'm creditting my deproving
to another player in my team)
Hard to adapt in volleyball. :(
Especially when you've been playing with the same
setter for four years, and is so glad that
he's coming to the same college as you for another 2 years,
just to find out that he can't come in the end.

People always say that when I play volleyball,
I become very serious, too serious.
Well, I guess its due to the fact that
I'm hyper-aware that when I lose a point,
I let down my entire team who's depending on me,
and who's worked so hard to get the ball to me.

Oh well. Too serious = too tense = lose ball = too serious = too tense =.....
Hahas. Break the cycle.

OH EM GEEEE Last post: 2 MARCH!

2009-04-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

This is so freaaaking bad.
My last post was like.... a month ago?!
WOW.
See, shows you how BUSY life is in jc.
Anyway, for those poly friends of mine
who are gonna grin in my face because I said that,
WE HAVE LOWER TRANSPORTATION FARES! XD

Anyway, though I don't deny JC life
is really very fast-paced and stuff,
I don't regret coming to TJC at all.
Especially cause I'm in SPORTSXCEL 09/10!
Really really proud to be part of them.
And oh gosh. I have to get rid of imeem.
Or at least change the songs.
I know you all are like
"YESSS... CHANGE THE SONGS."
Fine. :D
I'll try. Hee.

Anyway,

I'm in there. Somewhere. :D See if you can find meeee!
Till then.

Recovery.

2009-03-02T19:36:00.003+08:00

On the path of recovery I guess...
But doesn't mean I'm finally happy with the way things are.
The only thing that's changed is that a little helper
of God helped me realise that I was not only bitter with something,
but I was also bitter at the one person who
truly cares for me anywhere, anytime.
That's the major major thing that turned my life around for
the past few days. And I thank Him.

Cheered up with simple things. :D

2009-02-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

One of the things that cheer me up day to day is....
OG FOUR! :)) I think you guys are great and fun,
and the best is for us to be in each others company!

Tonight was quite fun, cause
OG 4 had dinner together! :D
Guess whereee? Fish & Co beside Park Mall!
Oh my gosh we all damn lame can.
Got like 3 strangers' birthday,
We sang for some guy named Joshua at another table!
Louise, a friend of mine had to ask one of the other 2
whether she looks like an indian because of a dare, (LOL)
and Anwar used a super-duper lame pick up line
on a F&Co waitress! The later two was cause of Truth and Dare. :D
Wanted to ask another guy to flag a cab, open the front door and
ask the taxi driver for the time. LMAO.
But we didn't luh. Not so bad.
Anyway just had lots and lots of fun.

Simple things like friends can really brighten up your depressing day.
But of course not as much as up there la.
But seems quiet for now. Hmmm, calm before a nice storm?
I wonder...

Something deeper.

2009-02-20T23:29:00.002+08:00

I am in depressed mode.
I just feel so down. Can't get out of it.
Hate it.... Dislike it.... Damn it.

Life sucks.
I'm getting more and more distant from my brother,
I'm becoming more and more introverted nowadays,
despite the usually-cheerful appearance.
At the end of the day, I still go back to feeling this down.
I kinda feel like crying, but what's the point.
My heart is so hard and cold.
Like I just don't have drive anymore.

Right now not very close to anyone.
It sucks not having anyone to confide in,
cause I don't feel comfortable with doing so with my family.
Oh yeah... I have Jesus right....
I guess my faith is at rock-bottom.
How ironic how I saved some people and now
they're doing better than me. Heh.

Geez. I seriously hate my complicated life.
I wish it could be so much simpler without certain
people in my life. Now I wish I had never met some of
them.

Now should I publish this post?
Ah... what the heck.
Read this and zip it.
Personal.
At least respect me.
Thanks. :/

BLOG C.P.R!!!

2009-02-19T23:29:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh... I've let my blog down.
Temasek Junior College, people, in case you didn't know. :D
SOooooo fun! Orientation was the most fun I had in years.
Everyone's so much more spontaneous than in boring Xinmin. O_O
No offence, Xinmin! But JCs are so much more enthu, making them much more fun.
Where's the fun when you enthu alone? :D
OF COURSE I wasn't overboard in enthu-ness.
Anyway, my OG (Orientation Group) ROCKS! :)
Damn bonded. Woot! Now still going for lunch every wednesday after Contact Time.
Pro right... :DD

Okay, enough being so high. Time to rant.
Rant about?

1. Bio lectures.

The lecturers are so freaaaaking fassst! Like zzzzzzzip!
5 minutes = 5 pages of the notes done = covering of like 20 new terms and definitions!!
Sec school Biology is so damn slack can. =.=
And it's not only one lecturer.
Tday there was a new lecturer and she was exactly the same.
Lame.and.speed-of-light.
Oh yeah, the lame part right, the first lecturer was like:
"What's a cow on two legs?"
People in the back were like "JAMES!"
Laugh Laugh Laugh at Now-not-Stranger-James.
Lecturer:"LEAN BEEF!"
Laughter + Wahlaoooo.... + Cold SIA + Laugh Laugh + Oh my God + W.T.H... + Laughter.

Cow lying down?
Ground beef.

My face was like... - =""

2. Ranting on Time-Table.

Just looking at it makes me tired.
Avg. going-home time is like 4pm?
plus PDP is like reach home at 9-10pm.
Close your mouth, flies may fly in, or mozzies may make your tongue inflated.

3. Mozzies = dumb bugs that infect people.

3 members of my family are down my dengue.
My two cousins and my auntie.
Christians, please pray for them..
My aunt is Amy, and my two cousins are Christina and Jessica.
Pray for God's miraculous healing hand to cure them and protect them.

4. Volleyball Team STRESS.

I'm kinda sian about volleyball now.
My team is too quiet, way too quiet.
The whole team becomes a mess during matches,
we don't pull ourselves up by cheering each other on when we're losing,
we don't have that desire to really improve,
we keep changing formations.
Trust me, this sucks.
Oh well, have faith in God. I just have to keep praying that the team will pull through.
GO TJC VB!

Okay. all done with ranting and stuff.
Congratulations to Andrea, now in TJC, used to be from 405, for Best Speaker Award in the Debate Competition!
If you guys see him, congratulate him hor!

I have decided.

2009-01-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

To what? To put more interesting stuff on me blog of course!
Okay luh, maybe not thattt interesting... but I'll try.
My birthday present from Dads and Mums here and in Msia
is arriving tml! As in Monday! :D
But too bad, I'd be in work and I'd be too busy to fiddle with the gadget
which is the first thing I do when getting an electronic thing.

One, FIND ALL FEATURES.
Two, FIDDLE FIDDLE FIIIDDDDLLLLEEE.
And Three, get bored with it.
LOL. See the lameness of a materialistic life.
That's why I have Him! To save me from an otherwise meaningless life.

Weee! Tml I'm leading gel for cell in church. Xinyi is going sia... pro!
I'm glad she's joining the church! :D
Then got more Xinmin, or should I say ex-xinmin people in TCC.
Woot!

Hmm let's post some stuff.
What can I post.

For the christians,

This is just how much our Father loves us, carrying our burden.

Anyway...
Enough of that.
I'm just wasting time.
Chalet's coming soon! Oh my gosh.
And I've yet to fully plan 20th Jan's activities.
Nvm. Can de! :D

My Specialest Special Day ever.

2009-01-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm 17 today! Hurray!
Past 16 already! Gosh. Exhilarating!
Anyway, what did I do today?

Morning, I woke up and did some updating in the chalet list.
Worries pile up as the chalet date draws near.
But God provides! So everything will be okay.
At about 12, my mummy called and told me her colleague
needs a part time worker for a short period of 2 days.
So... I went for lunch with two close friends at Aston's in Cathay.
So affordable luh! Gosh! 3 of us only added up to $24 TOTAL!
And the food is western style. Super nice!

Anyway, after a satisfying lunch,
I headed to harbourfront!
:D I worked from like 3.30 to 6.45pm...
Then I left for SAKURA with my mum.
Yepp, International Buffet!
THE SHISHAMO IS GODLY.
(In case you don't know what's that, it's grilled pregnant fish.)
So's the oreo cheesecake! xD

Anyway, this has been a special day cause usually no one remembers my birthday.
But today, I received a lot of birthday wishes surprisingly! :O
Anyway, it was a simple, but really satisfying day.

Sister bought me some awesome Royce's chocs which I haven't tasted,
but apparently are the best in the business of chocolates.
"Eat one and you won't be able to find any other chocolate that is as nice."
All ye chocoholics out there! AREN'T YOU JEALOUS?
Haha! Well, I really enjoyed today. :D
Happy seventeenth to myself! :o

Faithfulness. God's forte :D

2009-01-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

All glory to God! I did well! :D
5 A1's and 3A2's. The only B3 was for..., yepp, CHINESE.
Thank God I got an A2 for Physics. I was dreading the outcome of
skipping several questions in the Paper 2.
Thank God for an A2 in Combines Humans SS/Hist cause I suck at it. :D
And thank God for an A2 in English because many didn't have that good a grade.
Thank God for every single A1 because I didn't really expect them to happen.
Even though, I really have nothing to be worried about when I DSAed to TJC already,
I really thank God for my results.

God IS faithful. Even though you might not think he is at times.
In the end, you'll see that he has brought you to far greater heights than you've ever imagined.
Amen. :D

To my dearest friends.

Change is imminent...

2009-01-12T12:17:00.002+08:00

Crap. Yeah, I'm blogging like, 15 minutes before I leave the house.
Anyway, my music playlist's gonna be changed to Imeem now.
Cause its much more convenient, plus I can upload my songs into it.
Anyway, what you're listening to now is christian music, believe it or not. :D

Its an amazing band called Fireflight.
TCC Ignyte, my church youth ministry, played it before service.
Awesome stuff. Hear for yourself! :D

O's results are out later. I guess I'll blog when I get home.
:D all glory to god!

One day to the other.

2008-12-28T21:55:00.002+08:00

You know, the thing I don't really like about blogs is that
we always use the word 'I'.
For example, I feel sad today OR I HATE HERRR!!~~
It makes the blogger seem... pretty self-centred.
I don't like. ...see what I mean?

Anyway, sorry for side-tracking. :D
Busy busy week just passed
cause the whole of my maternal extended family were over in Singapore!
yeahh, that's like... one, two, three, four complete families yo, minus one uncle.
So I am pooped. P.o.o.p.e.d...Pooped.
Had to entertain my this one cousin who gets bored VERY easily.
ARE YOU HEARING THIS CHRISTINA? xD
Hahas just kidding luh.
Though tiring, being with my family and esp. my cousins,
was an enriching and fun time.

Oh gosh.
I'm gonna sleep now. Ciao.

S-URGE. SUUUURGE! Lord take me HIGHER.

2008-12-19T20:22:00.002+08:00

Guess what?
Contrary to my initial expectations,
SURGE! Camp '08 was AWESOME!
I went to the camp really dry in my walk with God,
really really far away from Him,
but praise God, by the first day of camp,
I became expectant of greater things, and that
oh-so-important encounter with God.
Yes, people, God is not someone who you just worship blindly,
but he is someone who you talk to,
AND TALKS BACK.

Seriously, being a second generation christian,
I had that same WRONG THINKING.
That God was just a.... thing.

Yet when I joined the Youth Ministry,
I had my first true close experience with God.
Its like... hmmm... I don't know.
The feeling was just so warm and nice, you know?
Just this fire that fills your entire body and
makes you wanna break down and cry.
Me? My life changed. I started hungering for God,
having a close relationship with him,
sharing my problems with Him,
and for the first time in my life,
receiving true purpose in my life:

to save as many as possible.

How can I be selfish right?
How can I be here, having this awesome experience with God,
while my friends are out there not even knowing if this GREAT thing in life.

SURGE camp restarted the flame burning in me.
And I thank God for that.
jesus, help me live for you. :D
Friends, the harvest is plenty but the workers are few.
Romans 1:8 "Your faith is being reported all over the world."
Let IGNYTE be like in Romans 1:8,
let us be WORLD SHAKERS.

Job hunting sucks. :(

2008-12-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

Hey the title says it all.
Yes I'm looking for a suitable part-time job..
Asked almost the entire j8 on friday! Crazy huh...
zz.. After that I went to harbourfront Centre AND
vivocity asking too. All I got were a whole bunch of uncertains.
SICKENING.

Oh well... I trust in God. :D I'll get the perfect one soon!
Until then.... :D

How do they do that?! COOOOOL!

2008-12-07T14:38:00.000+08:00

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2008-12-03T11:41:00.006+08:00

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Graduation Night photos (Take that xiinjuan! xD)

2008-12-03T10:57:00.002+08:00

FINALLY GOT ME GRAD NIGHT PHOTOS XD
Just put up a few photos. The rest'll be on my friendster...
Enjoy!

Me and some of da volleyball dudes... Kenneth, me, Terence, Kaishian, James.

Another bunch of vb people... Me, Hongrui, Joelle, Junsheng, Junlong.. (Hmm if she's here, where's kangwei huh???)

Class 202 2006. :D Whats James Tiang doing?!

Some of the 401 class guys. Me, Hexiang, Layhout, Junhao, Samuel plus Linyao at the bottom.

All ze vb dudes in 2008 batch of grad students.. :D
Lets see... Mr Alan Ang, me, Junlong, Kaishian, James, Junsheng, Terence, Hongrui, (bottom row) Kenneth, Aaron, Kangwei, Billy.

401 class girls! :D errr someone's eyes are closed!

Okay some of my close buddies. Me, Billy, Kenneth and that baichi behind is Kangwei.

Samuel!! Who insists on buttoning up his collar all the way. =.=

Yuanhao... Two Malaysians!

Kiachuan! Frigging tall.... Nice hair though.

Terence Teoh! Where's Anghui.

Adeline. The camera too nice already.

Egyptian-and-cool-looking Debs!

Joelleeeeeeeeee.

Christabellls! We look sparstic somehow.

Shihui! She looks different, no? But nice. :D

Cheryl Cheong Lame Lame! El Sophisticate. Nice.

One of my closest and Wackiest friends - Jasmine Leow! Looks nice, no?

Well that's about it. The rest are in my friendster account at this link:
http://www.friendster.com/photos/31328598/1/716778119

Phew!

Grad Night 08'... (Pics uploaded nxt time) and a slow painful suffering...

2008-11-22T18:15:00.002+08:00

Last wednesday:
Volleyball training from 9am to 12pm.
Outdoor.
Hot Sun, and I mean HOT.
And... with the circumstances,
I became a red lobster.
No surprise there...
My skin sucks. Near-zero tolerance for hot sun.
Oh well....

Anyway, later that night, GRADUATION NIGHT 2008!
It was... okay luh. Not too bad not thaat good.
The Deejay was tolerable. xD
Saw lots of unrecognisable, yet familiar faces.
All dress so differently! Here's a few...
Just kidding! I'll post it all when I have the pictures.
They are trapped in my sis' awesome camera
she so graciously lent me for that night. ( Thks sis! )

Oh man... I took pics with lots of people!
Don't think I can upload all of them.
Anyway stay tunes to this blog! xD

Oh yeah.
Day after that, which is... the day before yesterday,
SENTOSA! Yepp, the sun and the surf! Though didn't surf.
Anyway... the sun? Yeah a little too much...
OKAY IT WAS A LOT TOO MUCH.
Two days later (which is today),
Still can't sleep properly cause of my
hurting shoulder-back area.
My skin? Doubly red. I ain't kidding.
Somemore, yesterday I had training yesterday again.
Outdoor... again. Yepp.
I sprayed the sunblock like every ten minutes
and I think I still had too much Sun.
This... sucks. Heh.

Was supposed to go sentosa again today with
Kenneth, Billy and his Bro and Bro's friends,
but reason (and not to forget, a LOT of pain from my shoulders)
helped me to come to a decision I
can't say I regret... Staying at home and chilling out.
Oh yeahhh....
Which also explains why I'm here in front of my com.
If not I probably would be ending game and
heading to the showers at the beach at this time. :D

Oh.... I found a job!
Wait... actually Billy helped me. heh.
His mum's hiring.
Full-time starting December, 9am-6pm
with a sweeeeeet pay.
Blessing from God! :D

Anyway... I think I'm done...
Look out for the grad/prom night pics!
Stay tuned. :DD

NO! My blog is NOT dead! :)

2008-11-19T14:37:00.002+08:00

Okay, after the O's finished,
I was kinda lazy to blog.. HAHA.

Isn't that ironic?

When I shouldn't be blogging, I blogged.
When I have all the time in the world to blog,I don't blog. xD
Anyway to make up for that super-long period of
NON-BLOGGING, I will post an extraordinarily long entry today,
since there are many things for me to blog about. :)

First and foremost, though I lag in blogging this,
O LEVELS ARE OVER!! YES YEAH OH YEAHHHH
But you know what? I'm kinda Sian now...
There's no more mugging to do till FEBRUARY... *gasp*
I had thought that when O levels were over,
I'd be all over the ceiling, the floor, the walls,
and any other place you might be thinking off.
Just like shaking a can of soft drink and EXPLODING in happiness and freeeeee~~dom.
Hahas. Now really don't know what to do. Yepp. Sad right?

Well, there are some time-fillers going on right now.
GUESS WHAT?
Just ONE day after O Levels ended, I HAD Temasek JC TRAINING.
Imagine.
November 13 - Sweet freeedomm!
- Stayed over at the airport
- Planned to have friendly with Juniors next morning.
- GOT A CALL

-in the airport-
"Hello? Ehhh! You know tomorrow got TJ training?!"
"WHAAAAT?! SINCE WHEN?!"
"Zaiyou called me and said he told Billy long time ago..."
"WHAT?! You sure onot! Wait I call Billy first,"

"Hello?"
"EH! WHY YOU NEVER TELL US TML GOT TJ TRAINING?!"
"WHAT?! REALLY???"
"ZAIYOU SAID HE SMS YOU LEHS"
"Wait... conference call him... please hold."
"tooooo...tooooo...toooo..."
"Hello?"
"Eh you two know tml got tj training right?"-z.y.
"NOOOOOOOO...."
"I smsed Billy lehs..."
"Errr... you know I changed my number right?"
"REALLY MEH. Okay, anyway tml got tj training. so... ya."
"!@#$%#$%%... so now HOW?"
"You at changi airport right? Near bedok what. Meet you at the mrt at 7.30am lorhs."
"w.t.h...... okay. bye."

Yepp. But the good thing is, training started already hahas.
Even more time to improve on my Volleyball skills,
plus bond with the new team, plus just play vb!
I've had three trainings already so far...
Now training outdoors cause the indoor court is being used in A levels.
Oh man... I miss Xinmin's court and volleyballs....
Guess what is the brand of the majority of the tj balls.
Rainbow. =.=
Never-before-seen brands flood my eyeballs.
HAHA. Oh well....
It's not about the ball right? Its about the skill xD.
I just wish the A levels will end soon.
I slowly being burnt to a nice BRIGHT RED.

Oh yeah... another thing...
Church camp is coming!! December 14 - 17.
But exxxxxpensivvvveeee man....
$175!!! And we're just going to Johor... Hahas.
Yeah... Crazy right.
Anyways, I'm sure it'll be, as usual, a super-fun, super-refreshing camp.
Both physically and spiritually. :)

Hmmm.... What else is happening...
Oh yeah! I'm going to the beach tomorrow!
Sentosa Island Palawan Beach yox!
Beach volleying with my juniors...
Final Goodbye??? Hmmmm....
=DD

Oh yeah, how could I forget something that's happening later...
Graduation Night 2008 @ Orchard Hotel (wherever that is)
:D This is gonna really be a hybrid moment.
Happy cause of the graduation,
yet at the same time sad that we're leaving.
Anyway, I'm sure gonna miss my schoolmates.
Most of all, my volleyball teammates in my batch and my classmates.
Haixxx...

Oh my gosh... Really blogged like mad. - -
Okay.... I'm gonna go charge my camera battery hahas!

Replying tags... Exam period... BLOG OFF-LIMITS TO BLOGKEEPER!

2008-11-02T11:49:00.002+08:00

Since now is the O'level period,
I've decided to get serious and concentrate on studies.
But... since today is a Sunday,
I'll post just once xD
And it'll be just for?
REPLYING TAGS
cause got so many I didn't reply
and I'd feel bad not replying... So here goes!

Kenneth: Oh, thanks! Good Luck to you too, though it's already halfway done. xD

Sydney: O_O really? thanks thanks... try it luh!

Samuel: Isn't it OBVIOUS! xD I'll go check it out.

CAROLYN!: Well, i checked it out and Hitler died from suicide, but not from getting his balls bitten off by a goat. Its just a rumour and telephone line effect gone bad.

HX: What's so unbelievable about it! I scored 27 out of 50 for Prelims! :(

Jasmine: Hooray! Is it the same URL? Or i have to relink. :/

DONE! Anyway, thanks for tagging!
All the very best for upcoming O' levels yeah?
Over and Out!

Oh man... Tuesday = DOOMS DAY

2008-10-25T16:58:00.003+08:00

Its gonna be the dreaded paper....
E....history....
*Shudder*
Guess what. I'm not gonna study cold war.
Hahas. I'm gonna study Adolf Hitler
and know every single thing about him!
Added to what i already know...
like this song... Hilarious...
Mr. Singh told us about this once...

Hitler Has Only Got One Ball

Land of soap and water,

Hitler's having a bath.

Churchill's looking through the keyhole,

Having a jolly good laugh

Be..e..e..e..cause...

Göring has only got one ball

Hitler's [are] so very small

Himmler's so very similar

And Goebbels has no balls at all

Hitler has only got one ball,

The other is on the kitchen wall,

His mother, the dirty bugger,

Chopped it off when he was small

She threw it over Germany,

It landed in the deep blue sea,

The fishes got out their dishes,

And had scallops and bollocks for tea.

She threw it into a conker tree

It missed and went into to the sea

The fishes got out their dishes,

And had scallops and bollocks for tea.

HAHA! Quite sick but good for a laugh.
For now.
The History Paper's calling out to me....
"Laugh now while you caaaaaannnnn..."
Brrrr. Right.
Time to study before i get haunted
by hitler's ball-less ghost! LOLS!

3 down... 13 MORE to go.

2008-10-22T10:42:00.002+08:00

I was quite pissed at the fact that there
wasn't any argumentative questions...
but no choice. So I did discursive.
Man.... sucks.....
On the plus side, there won't be any
English for the rest of the year! YES.
Today'll be a boring paper...
A... Maths.... ZZZzzzzzz... zz...
Can you feel my boredom?

Oh, I chatted with a random person today.
Hahas... long time no chat with him le.
Oh well.. Anw i gotta go now....
Going fer lunch before the 2 h boring paper..
Gonna buy CHOCOLATE.
Good luck peeps!

1 down, 15 more to go... - -

2008-10-21T08:59:00.002+08:00

Yahoo! Chemistry Paper 2 is finally over! yep yep.
Anyway... God really helped me yesterday during the exam.
How? Well firstly, he helped me to stay calm mostly throughout
the paper, and praise God, I was studying atmosphere topic
just before the exam at about 10 o'clock and
guess what? It was one of the major topics in the paper!
Praise God for I know that he will bring me thorugh the O' levels.

:D Phillipians 4:6-7 NKJV
"Be careful for nothing (do not be anxious for anything);
but in everything by prayer and supplication with
thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
(But pray and thank God, and let Him know your requests)
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding,
shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Today's English papers 1 and 2.
I shall read up on TIME's magazine and build up my facts.
But I won't worry because I have another source of strength
... through Christ Jesus. All the Best everyone!

Jitters and Art!

2008-10-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

Why Jitters? Duh.
Monday's the start of the 3-week-TORTURE.
Hahas... over reacting a little..
But seriously, its bad.
I still feel like I forgot something!!
You know, that constant nagging at the back
of your mind that never goes away?
Yeah, i got it bad.
Or maybe it's just stress?
Don't know. But..
FREAAK ITS KILLING ME.
KILLLLLIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG MEEEEEEE
...sorry. Just had to do that.
's called venting. yepp.

Anyways, I think i'll replace the laptop
with my pillow for that purpose later.

For now, just let you guys see what I
worked on days ago...
Quite nice, if I say so myself,
...whichh I am. x)
Without further ado...

&...

Nice?? Hahas.
Was just experimenting on a few
techniques in the digital imaging program,
and I found out that doing some stuff
made this cool effect. :)
So i tried it with my fav colour first,
then with the blue...
The blue turned out better though.
Don't ask me why there's a YAHOO! thing there.
Thought it would be nice to set as a wallpaper. xD
Oh yeah, if you want it can go to jeremylaw16.deviantart.com
and download. Its a new account though so nth much.. yet.
Oh yeah... this part of the post
would probably make up for the "art" part in the title.
Though i didn't really draw it. xD
I'll try to work on something done by hand soon,
so watch out! heh.

end post-

Give yourself away...

2008-10-16T19:50:00.002+08:00

Hahas I am really fanatic
over Switchfoot songs right now.
They're really meaningful...
And nice.
Good to get away from superficiality sometimes.
Andd.... they're christians too!

WOOT!
Okay, cue fire extinguisher!
Anyway, I especially like the lyrics of this song..
Will put it in the playlist if possible.

Daisy

Daisy, give yourself away
Look up at the rain
The beautiful display
Of power and surrender
Giving us today
And she gives herself away

Rain, another rainy day
Comes up from the ocean
Give herself away
She comes down easy
On rich and debt the same
And she gives herself away
Let it go
Daisy, Let it go
Open up your fist
This fallen world
Doesn't hold your interest
It doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go

Pain, give yourself a name
Call yourself contrition,
Avarice or blame
Giving isn't easy
Neither is the rain
When she gives herself away

Daisy, why another day?
Why another sunrise
Who will take the blame
For all redemptive motion
And every rainy day
When He gives Himself away

Let it go
Daisy, let it go
Open up your fist
This fallen world
Doesn't hold your interest
Doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go

Have YOU Studied Yet?

2008-10-13T15:15:00.003+08:00

(Made this picture by myself!)

Another day, another mugging session.
Let's see, I've sorta completed Maths, both A and E.
So that's two subjects down...
Chemistry is definitely done,
just need to brush up on Qualitative Analysis and Metals,
so that's three subs down.
Biology?
Not done yet...
Needa read through and stuff.
Same for Physics.
Still got what?
Oh yeah, half studied History.
Now I'm left with Social Studies too.
Not forgetting English Lit...
So thats...
Physics, Biology, SS and English Lit.
Sigh...

Anyway, other than school and books,
I am in a predicament!
Don't know whether to stay as a Singapore PR,
or to convert to a Singaporean...
Sigh, I know if I convert I'll definitely
regret not being able to live in Malaysia.
Cause i really love the way of life there.
To go out to different places to eat
food you can never find here in Singapore,
usually travelling around in parents' car,
close to many different relatives,
and being close to my dad and mom in Malaysia too.

Yet, if I don't convert, I'll definitely lose out on Edusave,
my mom here also can't make claims to pay lower taxes
cause she can only claim for S'poreans, and I'll also be
bounded for three years if I study here in Uni..
Plus if I convert I'll get many other benefits
and stuff... All the political heebijeebis...
I'd be saving my parents a whole lot of money...
ARGHHH!

Someone tell me what to do...

JUST 12 MORE DAYS, 288 HOURS, 17280 MINUTES... oh you get the idea.

2008-10-08T11:25:00.008+08:00

Had Literature lesson today and I'm going to church later to study with a friend...
So I have time to blog now...
Oh well...
Hahas i feel so dead today...
Not really into studying and stuff.
Blame it all on the stupid goldfish poem I just analysed...
Here it is :

(love song, with two goldfish)

(He's a drifter, always
floating around her, has
nowhere else to go. He wishes
she would sing, not much, just the scales;
or take some notice,
give him the fish eye.)

(Bounded by round walls
she makes fish eyes
and kissy lips at him, darts
behind pebbles, swallows
his charms hook, line and sinker)

(He's bowled over. He would
take her to the ocean, they could
count the waves. There,
in the submarine silence, they would share
their deepest secrets. Dive for pearls
like stars.)

(But her love's since
gone belly-up. His heart sinks
like a fish. He drinks
like a stone. Drowns those sorrows,
stares emptily through glass.)

(the reason, she said
she wanted)
(and he could not give)
a life
beyond the
(bowl)

By Grace Chua

Two hours on this poem. weeee~ Can you feel my joy?
Anyway, my cousin is staying over at my place till Saturday.
Good! At least the place will be a tad more interesting.

Oh yeah, about church, I'll be studying in Han's hehe.
Hopefully they won't chase us away.
Don't think they will as the place is practically dead on weekdays.
It's only real revenue is on saturday and sunday church goers.
Like moi. Heh.

Hope my studying will be productive! :D
Oh yeah, even more pics from the last few days of school :DD

This is lit class :D

This 401 (with the cups Miss Fizhah gave us)

Me Cheryl Kenneth & Jasmine. (Ice Cube Guy don't know how to take Photo with steady hands.)

Second day of feverish studying!

2008-10-03T11:40:00.005+08:00

So what am i doing on the computer? None of your business! Hahas.. Just felt nostalgic today. Oh man... I really have grown attached to my class, though sometimes i wanna strangle some of them (Just Kidding.. maybe), they've always been so enthusiastic and so passionate... Birthday songs, games, cheers, everything! I love 401!

I so miss volleyball training now... Getting 'high' during competitions, winning trophies for the school, having awesome teammates who never fail to humour me, and also workin and sweatin hard for that ball thats gonna hit the ground, and the relief it brings my team when i manage to hit it up, and the thrill of seeing that that ball wasn't wasted when my team scores a point almost immediately! God, i love volleyball.

Here's some of the precious times in my secondary school life that I'll cherish forever. and.. NO, I'M NOT STALLING MY STUDYING BY WRITING SUCH A LONG POST TODAY. What makes you think that huh huh? :D God please help me to concentrate, cause Chemistry is KILLING ME. HCl, KOH, MgO, CFCl~~

It's been good, a good two years.

2008-10-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was definitely one of the best days spent in school... As it should have been! How ironic, we sorta bonded the most as a class yesterday, but it was already the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. How sickeningly sad... Hahas. I won't have the chance to "sow the seeds of annoyance" anymore.(not me being the source of it) Muahaha! I AM SUDDENLY VERY PROUD TO BE IN 401! Oh-one, I'm gonna miss you guys!

huh? ohh! ahah!

Last week of school... T_T

2008-09-21T19:59:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh I haven't blogged for so long. - - Sorry! I had no time and heart to write anyway. hehe. Well, tml is the start of the last full week of school for me. Quite sad... but not quite as well. Hahas. I don't have to tolerate certain people anymore... YESS! But at the same time, I can't really see good friends anymore.. Oh what the heck. Just one more month, 29 more days to O's so better get it over and done with.. Just have to get less than 20 points. =D Cheers to end of secondary school life! not yet though... =.=

Today is a.. uh.. um.. er.... sad day?

2008-09-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

Actually, not really. The only thing that was saddening today was the news that Cat was going back to Hong Kong... YES, its my coach's- or should i say, EX-coach's- girlfriend who trained me in my libero skills for a period of time. Stay cool you, though its highly unlikely that you'll read this... =.= Anyway, yes! Tomorrow i can wear my rotting jersey in school.. HAHA YESSS! Champions! Day mahs xD At least I got to be in Champhions! event this year. OH YEAH, my right phone button is non-responsive!! AAAHHHHHH and i still have like, 1 year 3 mths left before i can upgrade it!!! DANG. O_o Oh well, I'll pray and have faith and tml it'll be okay... i hope... If not, then i'll....... then i'll..... hallelujah. -_-

10-09-08-... Last 2 to 3 weeks of school!

2008-09-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

This just in: Sec fours, have no fear, the long-awaited STUDY BREAK is here! (and yes, I'm lovin' it) Finally, O levels are just one month plus away! I'm totally confident with A- and E-math, English, and Chem. Just gotta practise more Physics, read up on Bio, History, SS and Lit and... voila! 100% O levels ass-kicking preparedness! Yes, go me! God bless me though, cause only the boring subjects are left... boohoo... SS... ugghh... History... Yeck! Oh well...

Some have death-wishes but me? I have a CLOTHES-WISH!!

2008-09-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

oh gravy! I've not been faithfully blogging this past few weeks! you know why? NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT. But now that the boring hols are over, i guess it's safe to crap again. Got a new long sleeve Tee today, bought straight from Msia by my mum. Quite nice heh. Now i need more SHORTS. Dying for some khakis cause i have none -.= Not enough clothes luh... Sucks. I'm-a-gonna-save-$$$-MODE! Then spluuuuurgee it ALL on clothes one day. Muaha. Well with my chocoholism, it ain't gonna be easy but... can be done!

PSP-get bored-mug-repeat

2008-09-02T00:34:00.001+08:00

The start of the hols.. yippee.. No, really, I'm so excited.. *yawn* Okaay, so maybe it ain't that great.. My mom and bro's over in m'sia now so the staying home practically screams silence and boredom. (Ironic hyperbole) =.=

Only mugged two hours today and feeling super guilty. sheesh! Feel obliged to study even during the "hols". Next thing we know, Christmas'll be a working day. Zz

Getting drowsy now, so I guess it's time for me to catch some "Zz"s...

Tchoukball-- improving! YES!

2008-08-30T21:29:00.003+08:00

We had tchoukball training today. So many people from our school is joining Chong Pang Community Centre's team now... So many, so fast. The first time anyone came to the tchoukball from our school, there were only five-- Kenneth, Billy, Kaishian, Terence and Kangwei. Then when I joined, it was me, Kenneth, Billy, Kangwei and Terence. No more Kaishian cuz of his knee or ankle, can't remember which... So the number was still five from our school. Then came YongSheng recently, then Ivan, and just today, Eddie and Raymond, a flood of Sec Twos! So now got nine people from Xinmin Sec in the team... Dunno whether good or bad. Anyway, full court phase of training was super fun today, just a little sian cause of the beginning, where the new guys had to get used to things first, but later to the end, it got better. Heh i guess i improved a bit. YES! =D here comes the flooding of the "Sense of the achievement" thing. Hahas. Later towards the end i was unlimitedly agitated by a group of people whom i will not say who, to prevent racial uproar and etc etc... where they barged into the court in a huge group and sorta forced us to end the training an hour early. Argh! Sickening!

Awesome Earth.

2008-08-30T21:23:00.002+08:00

God is goooood... hehe. =D

Happy-sad hybrid day...

2008-08-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

Happy side to today? Yeah, you guessed it--- Teacher's day! Smiles were all around, especially kev cheng who thinks we think that he looks like beckham, lol.

Sad? It makes me sad to know that a good friend is going through the downs in life. My words to you: Know that Jesus is always with you! Let go and LET GOD.

Volleyball-ing and missing it.

2008-08-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

Went up to the sports hall after school today to play my favourite sport-- volleyball! Awesome! I somewhat improved in my spiking and I even got to take part in the B Girls training match(my coach is theirs) and relive the experience of being in the CCA. But for now, I'll keep my sights set on O levels first.. study study!

PS yuen is a weirdo who memorises ppl's blog content...... JUST kidding! xD

never stop.

2008-08-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

never stop fishing! :D

Disappointed today..

2008-08-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

After being so excited about the new $1.8m Bishan Active Sports facility in front of Catholic High, my spirit was utterly dampened by the news that the beach volleyball court may not be opened yet. And we thought that maybe now, we can play vb after school like three times a week, something we could only imagine previously before this gloriously new sports facility dropped from heaven! Oh well, just another thing to wait for. Leave the best for the last and yada yada yada... I just wish that they'd faster open up the court to the public! The news so misleading... yesterday they showed teenagers playing as if it was already opened... blehs! Give false hope ta people like me! D: Oh yeah! Cadbury's Fudge Brownie Bar is fuh-reaaakkkinnngg NICE! A chocolate shell over sticky, heavenly goodness! Oh my gosh. Ate it today when classmates and me rushed out to buy the heaven-in-a-wrapper during lunch break.. well, only me at least.. the others only bought bread. Ahh... so many things happened today... hopefully they will open the public court soon... Oh yeah, I met the assistant coach of the Asian Youth Games Beach Vb team and he was looking for people to join.. too bad I think, cause I don't think we have time. Studies first and all that. Kk signing off for today. whew.

Bye bye for three years.

2008-08-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Ah, the sadness of watching the dousing of the flame is so overwhelming... :( No more amazing feats to watch and enjoy, and sportsmen to empathise with...

China's closing ceremony is just so awesome and breathtaking, it almost makes me feel proud to be human, past everyday events showing the uglier side of us. Yepp flame out with a glorious and wonderful BANG.

GLASSES SAVE YOUR LIFE! part two.

2008-08-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

(continued from previous post cause i using psp to blog and the text space damn small -.-)--- took the wrong bus! Moron right. Guess why. I forgot to bring my specs, (i wouldn't wear it anyway) and i made out 26 to be 28! Like I said, MORON.. Ended up turning into the lame CTE wth! So I got off and had to backtrack on foot for 20 min just to spend another 5 min waiting for a brimming 238. stupid.

ah well at least tml after church can rest at home and mug a little... thk god i'm back home safe! xD

GLASSES SAVE YOUR LIFE!

2008-08-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today was unbelievably hectic. Firstly, lilies and me went to find his bag and restring my older racquet at Queensway, (ate some delectable Katong laksa there, yumm...) then we were late so we rushed all the way to toa payoh sports hall for the precious hour of ass-kicking badminton, (mostly kenneth's. lol) and then spent at least half hour's worth of DECIDING what to eat, (no kidding! just deciding only!) then we ate at long john's. phew.
The best part of today? I frigging took the wrong bus---

So stressed.

2008-08-22T20:26:00.001+08:00

Today was so hectic, but in the very least there was an upside in the end. Actually there were two- bio test was postponed and i got my expected grade =D and SS remedial is cancelled forever! Thank god thank jesus thank everyone! i dun think i could take another one- two hour period of sheer boring torture! Oh well.. Yay gonna play badminton tml! Only one court and one hour only though---- heck... at least get to destress huh.... Let's see what else happened today... oh yeah i watched the spiderwick chronicles on my tiny PSP screen on the way and back from school.. so 刺激! omg... but a little lame. - - so why watch? too late... Looking forward to tml liao! woot my primary school cca sport lehs :) hopefully still can play...